First Post-Op Shower

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 159.6 |

Post Surgery Diet⟫ Liquids

Do you know what would be lovely? If an existential crisis was a one and done kind of thing. Instead, it just keeps on happening in dribs and drabs, catching you by surprise, and generally making it very difficult to remain on an even keel. Since meltdown Tuesday, I have found myself looking at my life through slightly different spectacles. I can see where I have utterly cocked things up, but I can also see where I have lain down and let myself be walked all over. It’s a strange feeling, realising just how much I’ve put up with over the years in the name of love and family.

Anyway, my main ‘tasks’ for today were to have a shower, dye my hair and (hopefully) feel a little less grebby. Stripes painted my head with a little help from Book_grim – I went for Crazy Colour soft lavender but when it was on my head, it looked a heck of a lot more like deep purple! I was meant to leave it on for 30 minutes, but the three of us were talking so it was on for over an hour. And the colour took – kinda? Some of my hair looks deep blue, some light pink, but definitely some lilac in there!

And I finally had a shower. I was really worried the whole time I was in there that I didn’t want the incisions to get too water-logged, and I tried not to rub or pull at any of the skin on my stomach. It is absolutely insane how covered in bruises I am – places that I cannot imagine just how I’ve bruised. My stomach feels weirdly empty/hollow – it’s all sagged in on itself. It’s not the most appetising thing to look at, that’s for sure.

I had a mushroom cup a soup with bone broth and made with skimmed milk and it was very tasty. I think it’s been my favourite cup-a-soup so far. It tasted really creamy but wasn’t heavy. 9/10, would definitely, happily have that again.

We’re all booked in for Tuesday for the wet room deep clean, so that’s another thing ticked off of the list. In the new year, I would like to get someone in to do the toilet in the hallway – literally scrub the sink, tiles and walls, make the actual toilet sparkle, and tidy up the storage in there. Actually, I wonder if it’s worth considering swapping the storage from the toilet to the bathroom – it might be worth it in terms of having more space in the bathroom? I shall mention it to the girls.

I decided to treat myself from the SimplyBe Black Friday sale. I’ve ordered the huge chocolate brown puffer coat I’ve been eyeing for a couple of months, some trousers, jimjams, tops/vests, some cycling shorts for when we resume using the resistance bands and an absolutely gorgeous navy/purple dress. I have NO idea where I might wear the dress, but I fell in love with it and just really, really wanted it! I’ve chosen a variety of sizes because I want to have something that fits me available all of the time. I remember from losing weight in the past that having all of your clothes just be too big can actually make you feel worse about how you look, but for the coat I went for the biggest size they did!

Book_grim is back to work tonight and Stripes has asked me to have a go at a piece of digital art manipulation, so it looks like we’re slowly getting back to normality! Works for me.

So weird to not realise just how badly I smelled until I’ve had a shower!