Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing
I got a response from the weight management team and it’s given me a lot to think about. They weren’t exactly the chattiest in their response: the initial email I got back from them said my message was blank and looked like a black square. My first thought was no-one thought to try to select all and see the writing? Then I reminded myself that not everyone has to have a dark contrast to make things easier to see and I should remember that.
So I re-sent it and the response I got was, well, not exactly effusive and I’m not 100% sure they answered the query but I’ll include the text.
In terms of weight loss, she has lost 26% of her excess bodyweight based on her referral weight when she attended post op group 20th Jan. This would suggest good progress.
Of course, weight loss can, and does, plateau after surgery but that doesn’t mean she won’t lose more.”
So it seems like it’s okay for me to be using the clear whey protein and that my weight loss is good – according to them. I think that I forgot that they are basing their calculations on excess body weight, not my entire body weight. I might want to get down to 175 lbs (roughly) but they are looking at 60% of my excess body weight which would take me to around 250 lbs.
It caused a lot of thoughts, like they’re not expecting me to get down to a BMI of 25, just get rid of a lot of my excess weight. When I would imagine most people undergoing surgery like this are thinking that the point is to get to a healthy BMI. I did use the bariatric bible to work out my excess weight and my ‘goal’ weight according to them would be 245 lbs.
But I want to exceed that – I want to get down to a ‘normal’ weight and not be considered fat any more. Which might be too high a goal. I guess watching 600 lb Life has given me an unrealistic view of what can be achieved after surgery. Or maybe I’m going to need to go back to GLP-1s to get down further than that.
I don’t want to be negative but this did affect me quite strongly and has had me thinking some dark thoughts. Like why did I go through with something as drastic as surgery if it’s not going to get me down to where I want to be. It’s been a case of reminding myself that before surgery, I was over 400 lbs – losing 200 lbs is no mean feat and I shouldn’t be knocking what can happen over the course of this year.
The scales have dropped a little – lowest weight registered by less than 0.4 kg – and I got a chunk of sleep last night. I guess I’m just confused as to what has changed. I have stopped having the mozzarella sticks with my chicken skewers; this weekend I did some meal prep and made about 9 chicken skewers after seasoning some mini chicken fillets and cooking them in the oven. Could the lack of mozzarella sticks have made that much difference? My calories are still around 1000 per day, including the clear whey protein, and the rest of the email said that I would be hearing from the dietician within the next three months, so I guess it’s right back to just following the programme, doing what I’m meant to be doing and trusting the process.
I did some yoga this morning – just some seated sun salutations – but I don’t think I’m going out for a walk. My left hip is causing me some major grief, and my left knee is also not happy. I worry that I am making excuses and could be doing more but I also don’t want to push myself to the point of injury. We did a quick Iceland shop which is due this afternoon, so I should be okay for MyProtein cheesecakes and chicken skewers – back to the grind I guess!
My chest is really tight, I’ve been bringing up phlegm and coughing, so I feel a bit of a wreck which hasn’t helped with my mood. We don’t have any plans for today – Book_grim had to go for another pee test up at the surgery, the shopping is due this afternoon, but apart from that I think it’s chill time. I don’t have any ARCs to read – I failed utterly to finish reading that anthology on time, so that’s a mark against me with GRR. I do have some regular books to read so I might try to knock one of those out today. Tomorrow is a writing day and I want to see if I can get a couple of chapters of Burning Love written because it’s going well.
Onwards into Monday.
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