Prunes and Yoyo Scales

SW ⟫ CW ⟫ GW

207.7 ⟫ 178.5 ⟫ 168.2

Ozempic ⟫ 0.5 mg

Huge sigh. The scales went up again and this week registers as no loss at all. Of course, I am not only beating myself for it in terms of wondering why I am such a failure, but I am looking at everything I’ve eaten and questioning myself.

To be fair, I am having some toilet issues – so much so that I have finally bitten the bullet and bought some prunes. I only had one – I want movement but not an explosion – and it didn’t taste completely and utterly gross. I’m now sat feeling like I am ‘listening’ to my insides and wondering just when something is going to happen. I have also had porridge for breakfast instead of a banana to see if the oats will help to get this bowling ball moving.

Logically speaking, I know that being constipated is going to mean that I am not going to lose weight but it’s really disheartening. I was talking to Stripes about it, about how lonely I sometimes feel following this whole Ozempic thing because there’s no concrete ‘diet’ plan to follow. I wonder if I should go back to the doctor and ask to titrate up or whether I should try to stick it out on 0.5 for a bit longer. I don’t want to have to go through more side effects and what if this hiccup is just because of the toilet thing?

Today I need to be reading, but I also have my prompt for the intoabar challenge – of all fucking people, I have to write Connor. I don’t think I’ve ever written him as a character before and am kicking myself for not considering that he might be chosen. So, yeah – not feeling today at all.