Some of the Bats are out of the Belfry....

SW ⟫ 207.7 | CW ⟫ 178.8 | MGW ⟫ 168.2

Ozempic: ⟫ 0.5 mg

I read THIS post on Reddit today and it really and truly helped me. Not only was this person starting from a higher weight than most (including me), but they shared pictures so that you could see their transformation. I knew I was feeling isolated and lonely, but seeing this post really brought it home to me how alone I have been feeling doing Ozempic. And to begin from over 400 lbs made me feel like this journey was going to be never-ending and I was never going to reach the goal, or even the mini goal that I have set for myself.

Yesterday evening, I had BM for what feels like the first time in forever. And yes, I was hoping for a huge drop on the scales. I didn’t get the drop on the scales but I did feel a change in my mood and demeanour. To be clear, I haven’t got rid of everything – I certainly expected more after all of the prunes, etc – but I feel a little less bloated and full which is amazing after the last week. I literally feel like I have been dragging around absolutely everything I’ve eaten over the last week and it was weighing me down. I am looking into Movicol or something similar, although I do have Dulcolax left. The main issue is that I don’t want to have to rely on laxatives in order to have a BM – hence the prunes. I have had the suggestion given to me of chia seeds or maybe a handful of nuts, so that’s also something to look into.

So, yeah, I’m not quite so full of shit!

I am also thinking about migrating this blog to Dreamwidth. I spend far more time on there and Livejournal and perhaps I can find some people following the same thing as me? I think I need to find my people. The issue that I have with it is that it is far too easy for me to drown myself in weight loss forums and stop concentrating on myself. I’ve done it twice in the past – once when I did the Cambridge Diet, and again when a larger weight loss forum was created. I was spending days just reading and writing posts which was detrimental in the end. I need to keep the focus on myself whilst still finding people in a similar situation to mine. It doesn’t need to be mega specific – just using semaglutides and coming from a place of being super morbidly obese. I know the people wanting to lose 20 – 50 lbs have just as much of a valid journey, but it can feel difficult to relate to that when losing 50 lbs barely cracks a dent in the journey I’m facing.

(I hope that doesn’t seem dismissive of people trying to lose less weight than me. I think all of these journeys are valid. It’s not meant to be but hopefully I’m not being tone deaf. )

It’s coming up to the time for a May round up and I’m a little bit bothered that I haven’t achieved a lot in May. I’ve been playing around with spreadsheets and charts and decided to see what my monthly weight loss looks like in a broader sense. Yes, weighing every day keeps it on my mind but it can be easy to get stuck on the minutiae when it should also be about the broader picture. Hopefully, the image shows up!

What it shows indisputably is that the scales – the numbers – are going down pretty consistently. Now I just need to remember to look at those figures when I’m feeling down on myself!