Mother Knows Best #1

Weekly phone call with my Marmee and she talked so much sense that it was kinda terrifying. I told her about considering making a doctor’s appointment and titrating up a level. She said that I should give it a solid month of doing things ‘right’ and then comparing my results for the month before I try to move up a level.

She reminded me that it took a long time to put this weight on so it’s going to take a long time to lose it. That I need to stop comparing myself to other people, stop denigrating my progress and accept the weight loss that I have. She said the time to worry is when I start putting the weight on consistently, which I have to be honest isn’t happening at the moment.

So there goes me going to try to get to the doctor’s – June is going to be a consolidation month! Sometimes Mother really does know best!

I sent her a photograph from when I attended my diabetic eye screening appointment and she loved it. She said she could definitely see the difference from when she saw me in May for Mother's Day. I absolute hate that photo - all I can see is the lump on the side of my stomach, how huge I look in the cardigan, etc. But I guess that's another reason why I don't want to see the monthly photos that Stripes because I just don't see it. I really can't. I wonder if everyone who loses a lot of weight suffers from body dysmorphia like this? I have just read a thread on Reddit where people are discussing this very thing.