SW ⟫ 207.7 |
CW ⟫ 174.8 |
Ozempic: ⟫ 1 mg
Coming up the end of the month and once again I am feeling a little lost. I don’t know if it’s because I’m coming up to a year being on this ‘plan’. It’s all a bit hazy when I truly started because I was on Trulicity, then off of it just trying to lose weight, then getting serious on it. 25th September is the first weight logged on my spreadsheet, so I guess that’s my anniversary? Either way, I have less than a month left before my year has come up and I feel like I should be achieving big things but that I’m not.
I started at 207.7 kgs and the scales this morning said 174.8 kgs so I should be pleased, right? But instead, I’m just feeling stalled. It’s not a proper stall because I think that has to be ongoing for a month with no movement, but I want to see new numbers. I
need to see new numbers because otherwise why am I jabbing myself every flipping week?
I actually had a good week. It was Stripes’ birthday and the three of us went to get tattoos at
Painted Fern. As her present, I paid for Stripes to have a tattoo of a amigurumi she made of an armadillo and it looks freaking gorgeous on her upper thigh. Or it will do once the ink sack has been cleaned off and the swelling goes down!
I got a geometric fox from Laura and Gidget got a kuromi keyring from Tanya. We had a blast, but it was the first time I’ve been out in over a month and since COVID so it’s hitting me kinda hard. I’m also a little bit concerned about the tattoo – me and white ink don’t have the best relationship in the world and some of the white in the fox looks a bit ‘off’. I just don’t think my skin likes white ink and is protesting. It’s an absolutely gorgeous fox and I can’t wait for it to be healed, but at the moment it’s painful, swollen and itchy af!
Then we watched TV, had take-out and watched Stripes open her gifts. Since then, I’ve literally done nothing but sleep and read. It’s my writing day and I haven’t done anything but blog posts and a review. I need to read three books at the moment and the deadlines are in September which sounds great but that’s next week!
Finally ordered a sofa and it’s due by Monday. It’s green in fake velvet and is kinda basic but we don’t need anything special. Especially since it’s going to be covered by the blankets and spreads I have, cat fur and probably scratched to shit! I really want to do some proper work on my bedroom, get rid of the clutter, find a home for things and throw out the things that I don’t use. So maybe that’s something to aim for next week.
Gidget is going to put together a time-line of her relationship with JC and we’re going to contact the police. At the moment, he is banned from where she works but that hasn’t been tested yet and we don’t know if/how he’s going to react to that. Just in case he escalates, we want to know what we can do about the situation and also ensure that there is a document trail if we need to go to the police for more assistance. I’m bricking it – I’m never done anything like this. I want to be there to support Gidget but I don’t want to steer her wrong, or make her life harder.
In the meantime, I just need to trust the process. Or processes. I weigh less now than I did at the beginning of August so that has to count as a win. And the fact that I can’t see it is most likely my own head-fucked attitude. Yes, I have Mantra stuff I could work on when I have the energy but isn’t that the bitch? I don’t have any energy at the moment. No energy, no sense of achievement, no creativity – yeah, time to log off and read. I’m not achieving anything sitting here moaning and complaining!
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