Pre Op Day 8 - SlimFast and I do not get along!

SW ⟫ 207.7 | CW ⟫ 166.2 |

Ozempic: ⟫ 1 mg | Pre-op Diet:⟫ Day 8

I really don’t think my body likes the SlimFast Shakes. I had a chocolate one last night – it tasted nice enough going down, although a little bland. But less than an hour later, I’m back stuck on the loo, struggling with the choccy waterfalls. I only have one more flavour to try out of the 18 I bought, and although I have my fingers crossed that the final flavour is one I can cope with, I don’t have high hopes.

I guess I can try to sell them on or something – I hate the thought of them going to waste – and I have all of my sachets to keep me going so I have time to find replacements if they are not going to work out. Stripes and I are wondering whether it’s because of the milk content – the shakes we make up with water – and because there’s nothing else in my stomach, it’s reacting badly.

The scales have shown a slight up-tick and it would be so easy to let that prey on my mind. My sister asked me if I thought I’d be able to lose the weight without going through with the surgery (we were chatting about ways to help Gidget help with all of the stuff in her head, including her anger about me taking the risk of surgery) and I had to admit that I really didn’t think I could. Yes, I’ve lost a chunk of weight in the week since I started the pre-op diet – today is day 8, so in the course of one week I have lost 4.6kg which is brilliant. However, I am not finding it easy by any means and I can’t say for definite that I’d be able to keep following the liquid diet if I had a choice.

So, no, I couldn’t do this without the surgery. Which means doing everything I can to ensure that the girls are okay with my decision and feeling as positive as possible.

I tried on the Garfield jimjam top that I got yesterday – it’s a size 5xl and I thought it was going to be tight and I was very worried. Colour me well-surprised when it went on easily, with plenty of room around the bust and waist. I haven’t tried on the bottoms yet – I think just the top being suitable was enough to blow my mind. I wasn’t ready for either (a) the bottoms to be too small or (b) fit perfectly. The difference a week has made is really messing with my head, and I have to keep my eye on the prize – I am doing this to shrink my liver and in the name of getting to where I want to be. I still need to try on the other items I bought in size 5xl – there’s no such thing as a universal fit – but I don’t see me doing it today.

I woke up around 8 am and haven’t been able to get back to sleep. I could make myself a shake – start the day off right – but instead I read a book and jumped on to do the review because I just feel so meh. Not wrong, as such, just – kinda ennui I think I described it to Stripes as. Nothing to get excited for, look forward to – the only important appointment I have this week is the video call tomorrow. Just tootling along.

Hopefully today, my butt will have settled down and I won’t suffer too much stomach trouble, although as I said I do need to try my last flavour of SlimFast. Actually, I might just get it out of the way now – that way, if it hits wrong I’m not already exhausted from the day to get back and forth to the bathroom. Ah, I know how to live the fun life – planning my day around bouts of diarrhoea!