Puree Week⟫ Day 4
Three weeks post surgery and I really don’t know how I’m feeling. It’s nice that the scales are starting to move downwards again, although I know I need to be aware that they are just as likely to go up as down whilst my body is adjusting to everything. I often feel ‘normal’ as in the incisions still itch like crazy but don’t actively hurt as much as they once did. I can walk around without holding onto my stomach for fear that it’s going to fall off or something ridiculous like that. I definitely don’t feel up to doing any exercise and the fatigue is real, but to be fair, that’s pretty much my normal. I think the sense of normality has definitely been assisted by me beginning to get my antidepressants into my system on the regular, and today I tried gabapentin again (the taste is so vile, it even killed my mango puree smoothie!)
Positivity: this one was difficult because it involved looking in a mirror and finding something positive to say about myself. My hair is a virulent purple (striking and pretty) and it would be so easy to say something about that and leave it. But I want to try and be as honest as possible. I look tired – dark circles under my eyes and my skin looks a little grey. BUT. I can see a change in my face shape – only a little but more than I’ve ever managed before – and I really like the way my skin looks against the purple hair. That has to count, right? I still have a very round face but it’s not as surface of the moon as I used to think!
Stripes hit Home Bargains today and sent me masses of photos of the various products so that I could choose the things I wanted. So many pretties, including hand soap, body wash, perfumed mist, nail varnishes – bliss! And it gave me an idea – I want to clear off one of my chest of drawers and make myself a ‘treat’ section – foot packs, body lotions, perfumes – all in one prominent place so that I make an effort to be nice to myself.
I did a lot of reading today but still haven’t finished the ARC I have – I have a writing day tomorrow so intend to finish the book and do a review straight away. It’s a good book – not as good as the first one I read from the author, but good nevertheless. I don’t know if I have any fiction in me – that side of my brain seems to be on holiday at the moment which is a bit of a pain because there are some outstanding stories that I would like to work on. Maybe inspiration will strike tomorrow but I’m not holding out much hope.
I’ve nearly finished the blanket for Jay’s grand-daughter and Stripes is making the second one as she has no crochet project on at the moment, so hopefully we’ll be able to get those posted early next week.
The DVD box-set I ordered turned up – it’s Emerald City which Stripes and I watched years ago. I was so excited to watch it but must admit to being a little disappointed. Maybe I bigged it up too much in my head? Not helped by the lack of subtitles and the low’ voices they all speak in. I still want to watch it but not as excited as I was. We watched the latest Strike on BBCiPlayer and it was brilliant. Frustrating but brilliant. I wish they made more of them but also want them to maintain the high level of entertainment etc so I guess I’ll have to wait another couple of years for the next series.
Food-wise, I’ve done okay. I managed a scrambled egg in 30 minutes (with Dmi’s help), had a mango puree smoothie, cup-a-soup and a milky coffee so nearly the five small meals that I’m meant to have. I know I’m nowhere near the right level of liquids or protein but it is definitely getting easier. One step closer to mashables – sip sip sip!
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