Transition to Normal Food
Well I can’t say that I’m in a better place than I was on Tuesday. Today is a writing day and I can already tell that I’m not going to get a whole lot done. Mainly because it’s just after 7am in the morning and I haven’t been to sleep yet. The last two days, I’ve been feeling absolutely awful – coughing, sneezing, a tightness just beneath my left breast and occasionally pain. There also feels like there’s a slight lump there but I’m not sure if I’m just winding myself up and everything is absolutely normal.
I’ve also got an almost constant pressure in my throat – I don’t know if it’s because I’m drinking my protein water mixed with sparkling mineral water and drinking through a straw, but it’s the best way to get my water in. It just feels like there’s something stuck in there but I can’t imagine what it would be – I set a timer so that I don’t drink anything for 30 minutes after I’ve eaten, which I kinda regretted the other day. Stripes made me a white fish fillet in mushrooms and garlic but I didn’t realise that she’d seasoned it with pepper. I bit down on a peppercorn and spent a good hour feeling like my chest was on fire. I think it irritated my pouch because things were very unhappy until I managed to drink some milk. Once I’d done that, I felt a lot better.
It makes me wonder if I should start a spreadsheet of the foods that I can’t cope with. I had Branston beans with a small amount of cheese and they were lovely and I managed them fine. I’ve also found the ready meals that I’ve been having relatively easy to manage. I only have half of the meal and nothing on the side and it seems to be working.
I think I need to reconsider my meals. I don’t know if it’s the mentality I had whilst on Ozempic – I didn’t have breakfast, then just had a main meal and snacks. I wonder if still doing something similar means that I am trying to get too much into my pouch in a small space of time and that’s why my throat feels the way that it does? I think I need to aim for little and often, with less slider foods like the yoghurt with mango puree that I’ve been eating. I’ve also discovered Babybel light and string cheese and they are the devil. They’re very moreish and relatively easy to get down and I find myself snacking on them more than I should. I don’t want to not have them because they are a good source of protein and get my calories up, but I do need to be aware that they are a bit of a temptation/danger food for me.
I bought myself a cup from Amazon to see if I can get my water intake up. It’s this one and is absolute massive. It holds 1.2 litres and comes with two different types of lid and two long straws. I am aiming for at least completely drinking one of these per day and using the protein water means that I am getting closer to my protein goals. Not that I know what those are – maybe I need to re-read the bariatric bible – but I have been trying to get to 80 g of protein per day.
I had a very upset stomach yesterday – the first time in what feels like quite a while. Maybe the scales will start moving downwards again? I really hope so – it’s so difficult to remain steadfast and optimistic when they haven’t moved for what feels like a good couple of weeks. I was expecting the three week stall but I wasn’t expecting to be at six weeks out and only have lost 20 lbs.
Now that it’s been six weeks, I want to begin exercising. The plan was to use the resistance bands that I got for Christmas and try to do them every other day. Unfortunately, this cold seems to have put paid to that idea – there are times when I can barely drag myself to the bathroom, let alone try to start exercising. And again, I’m worried that I’m making excuses for myself, letting myself fail because I’m afraid of success.
The girls are taking a couple of the cats to the vet for their annual vaccinations and I think I might try to get some sleep then. I know I’ve messed up my sleep schedule – I didn’t get to sleep until 6.30 am yesterday, then basically spent the day sleeping. I don’t want to become nocturnal because that seems to just be another way of avoiding real life. So of course, I’ve not slept tonight and will crash out when the girls leave around 10.30, then be awake in the middle of the night again. Argh, why do I do this to myself?
I have an ARC that I need to finish and review – I’m about halfway through so I should be able to get that done today/tomorrow. This weekend we are replacing Book_grim’s mattress, pillows and bedding. We think she has bed-bugs and I’ve been bitten because I spent a bit of time in there with her. I hope it’s not bed-bugs because I hate the damned things and I know it doesn’t take much for them to turn into an infestation. Book-grim is also talking about moving her bedroom around which I think could be a good thing. She’ll have to tidy various areas up in order to move things around, which I think will help her figure out how she wants to keep her space.
I know I need to clean up my bedroom again – the floor has got messy by the window, and I have clothes piled up in the chair next to my bed which was not the original plan. Once this leurgy has gone, I would like to get my room back to where I had it before the surgery. In the meantime, I’m not thinking about the rescheduled dietician’s visit which is on the calendar for 20th January. I worry that the scales will continue to go in the wrong direction. I was also thinking about the group meeting and worrying because I don’t want to take over and ask masses of questions (everyone hates the person that does that) but at the same time I want to ask things like about my vitamins, about the pain in my chest, etc and this is my best chance. I could email the dietician’s team before then but they were so slow to reply when I tried emailing them about my pre-op diet that I find myself thinking face-to-face would be better.
I’ve almost managed to wash out the lavender hair-colour which makes me hopeful that I will be able to try to rose-gold that I ordered from Amazon. It should be gone with maybe another one wash, maybe two. Not that it makes any difference since I still haven’t gone outside since the surgery. I had an excuse when it was snowing but it’s not at the moment, just bloody cold. I need to get my butt in gear and go out! I guess part of the issue is that I don’t want to visit any of the family members so I don’t actually have anywhere to go. And I don’t want to spend money because I am saving for the advance payment for the motability car. Right, I think that’s enough rambling – today I want to finish that ARC and try to have three meals and snacks, as well as at least a litre of water. Those are sensible goals!
One last note: I put 141.9 kg as my interim goal on Nutracheck which I am using to track my food and I have NO idea why I chose that number. I’ve done some calculations on my weight track spreadsheet and I can’t figure out why I chose it – it’s not a particular percentage compared to my start weight or anything like that. Maybe I’ll remember at some point and if so, hopefully make a note somewhere!
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