My Blogs are Moving! - March 2025

I’ve spent the last couple of days looking around at WordPress and I’ve decided that I’m going to move my blogs over there. I won’t delete what I’ve posted here, but I will no longer be doing reviews, weight loss progress or high thoughts on Blogger.

If you still want to follow me and/or read my various blog posts, please feel free to visit the new blogs.

High Thoughts ⟫ is my medicated by cannabis thoughts!

SKM Loses It! ⟫ follows my weight loss journey following my VSG surgery in November 2024

Book_Endz ⟫ will have my book reviews featuring arcs from Gay Romance Reviews, Foreword PR, BookSirens, Indie Author Creative and various authors.

If WordPress isn’t to your taste then thank you for the time you’ve spent with me – I hope you’ve enjoyed being part of my little blog empire.

Stay safe, stay kind and stay well

SKM

Cough, Cough, Whoops!

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 151 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Sometimes it feels like I’ve been sick on and off ever since the surgery. This past week, I have been struggling with a wracking cough that has grown progressively worse. I was planning on trying to get a doctor’s appointment to discuss my blood test results anyway but got kinda derailed as Book_grim already had an appointment booked which meant Stripes wouldn’t be available to help me.

Anyhow, things got worse over the course of the day on Thursday and I ended up filling in the form on NHS 111 Direct. They then called and asked a few questions and then said I needed to go to the Urgent Care Treatment Centre over in West Bromwich to be seen, just to be sure.

We pre-booked a TOA cab and made sure to say any car, and to be fair, it did turn up on time. We got there just a little after 8.30pm (the appointment time we were given was 8.30) and didn’t have to wait long to be seen. I feel a little chastised because he asked me a couple of times why I hadn’t gone to my Doctor about the cough previously – he was right, the girls were right, they were all right – I should have tried to get in with the doctor much sooner.

Anyway, he reckons it’s a chest infection so has prescribed antibiotics and steroids, with the strict warning that if things get worse over the weekend I am to go to A&E. Stripes and I also had a bit of a chat about how worried she and Book_grim have been about me with the light-headedness, not being able to catch my breath, etc and we decided we needed a code word for when someone wasn’t allowed to brush things off and had to take them seriously. Pterodactyl. Hopefully, we won’t have to use it in the foreseeable future.

Book_grim is off to Asda today (yes, I stayed up all night but my chest really hurts and this cough is driving me insane) and said she will pick up my prescription. I feel rotten because in the back of my mind I’m worrying about whether she’ll forget to pick it up or has some other issue. She doesn’t like the pharmacy next to the Doctor’s surgery because the people there aren’t very nice, so I can’t really ask her to go there instead.

In between acting as Patient Advocate for both me and Book_grim, Stripes made some protein cheesecakes. I believe she used this recipe here as a base, then used sugar free digestive biscuits to make the base. She used two different toppings: maple syrup on some and salted caramel sauce on some others, whilst she left a few blank. The whole recipe made 8 cheesecakes using the old GLU fancy yoghurt jars that Book_grim used to get as a treat!

They definitely have the texture of cheesecake but they weren’t mega-flavourful and definitely not what I would call sweet, which is odd because Stripes felt like she had to add a lot of granulated sweetener. We’re going to experiment with that – we have skinny syrups, peanut butter powder and various protein powders to play with. Very filling and counts as a full meal even though it’s around 171 kcal per portion with 11.3 g of protein – actually less calories than the ones from MyProtein. Next time, we might try using cottage cheese instead of Greek yoghurt, but I don’t recall ever having cottage cheese before and am a little unsure about the texture. I say next time We but it was Stripes doing all of the work! I imagine she looked a bit like the Swedish Chef from the Muppets, slaving away on these new recipes!

We’ve booked the restaurant for Book_grim’s 21st birthday lunch with Mom, Vee and Shar, and The Oldest is travelling up to be there too!! It would be nice if Book_grim would give me a clue what she actually wants for her birthday, but there are a couple of birthdays ahead of hers so I can nag them first. And of course, there is Mother’s Day later this month and I need to figure out what to get for someone who insists they don’t want anything but would pout for a decade if we didn’t get her at least a little something!

Since it’s nearly 8 am, I might as well stay awake and see if I can get a Doctor's appointment for the cholesterol thing, just to make sure I’m on top of everything. And then I plan to spend the day sleeping, reading ARCs and playing with WordPress!

And into March 2025 we go...

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 151.1 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

I wonder if it’s possible for me to start the month with a cheerful post? Don’t expect miracles, especially with this post.

So let’s see, I lost the grand total of 1.4 kgs over February which I found really disheartening. I should have been happy to hear from my weight management team that I am doing ‘good’ and am well within the numbers they would expect, but instead it got me wondering if I was going to need a revision to a bypass in order to get to a ‘normal’ weight. I can’t imagine going through the surgery stage of this all over again – I’m even thinking excess skin removal is not something I want to go through because it looks so incredibly painful. I know some people use GLP-1s after surgery to assist with food noise and further weight loss so maybe that’s something I’ll have to look into at a later date – a much later date.

Stripes took my first day of the months photos and I spent a little while looking at them. I think it is possible to see differences in some areas, but it’s also depressingly easy to see all of the places I need to work on.

I’ve been walking around the car park again, fortunately without incident. I have been going alone and using my crutches for stability, but my pace has crept up a little which is good. Food-wise, I’m wondering whether I need to change things up a bit. I have been drinking at least 60 oz of protein water per day and thinking I could swap one of those for plain water, just to see if it makes a difference. I guess it’s that balance between getting all of my fluids in and avoiding dehydration AND getting my protein goals in.

I think I also need to look at my daily food. Basically, by the time I wake up I seem to ‘decide’ that there’s no point having breakfast, which means my first meal is generally dinner. Then I have a yoghurt, a myprotein cheesecake and the protein water. I sometimes have string cheese or babybel but even though I’m reaching between 800 and 1200 calories, I don’t think it’s very balanced. There’s very little fresh produce in there and the weight loss isn’t happening. So maybe I need to shake things up? I’m hoping that I get to speak to a dietician at some point this month and I will bring it up with them.

March is looking busy. We have an assessment on 4th for some equipment around the flat – a new hand rail in the toilet next to the kitchen to help me get up, as well as possibly some handrails outside the flat for when I enter and exit. Stripes is out for a blood test on 4th but should be back before the assessment. I also have a Mamedica appointment on Tuesday because I tried to put through a repeat prescription and apparently I need to talk to them before they’ll let me have any more. It’s a good thing – I realised that I have packets of ‘old’ weed going back to December 2023 and I need to know how to safely get rid of them. I’m out of Farm Gas and Sourdough and am using the Morroccan peach to get to sleep, which isn’t the most effective but at least it’s better than the Lot 420.

I’m tired as all heck and also feeling a bit meh. I used one of the MicroLax things last week and was beginning to feel a bit better, but now I’m back to feeling all bunged up. The wind has also not improved very much, which is another reason I might need to look at what I’m eating. I’ve finished all of the knitting I was doing – I have a little bit of wool left over but not enough to plan a project or anything like that. Ah well, I do have a couple of books to read, and we have the finale for Mayfair Witches to watch tonight. I think I’m gonna settle down to do some reading and chill.

Saying goodbye to favourite jewellry

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 150.4 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Approaching the end of February and there are a couple of NSVs to celebrate. Actually, celebrate is the wrong word because I’m having to say goodbye to some of my favourite rings – they are far too big for me now, even if I try to wear them on my thumbs. I have one ring that Book_grim gave me that fits my ring finger on my left hand – previously, I couldn’t wear it all because it was too small but now it fits. It feels a little snug but that might be because I’ve got used to rings sliding off of my fingers whereas this one comes off very easily but should stay put in general.

Another NSV is talking to my Mum – we had a lovely chat this morning, and I somehow managed to maintain my stance on not talking about numbers. I’m happy to talk about how I’m recovering from the surgery and my general health, but I don’t say how much weight I’ve lost (or not lost) and when she asks I just say my weight management team are happy with me. So I am managing to maintain the information diet and control the narrative – she can’t be spreading gossip about my progress or lack of if she doesn’t know what’s actually happening!

The scales have started moving downwards which is nice – obviously, it would be nicer if they were going down in leaps and bounds, but I’ll take the downward tragectory! Yesterday, I was really struggling – it constantly felt like I had something stuck in my throat. I don’t know if it’s because I was eating the chicken skewers that I meal-prepped and they were a bit dry? I think it’s because they are chicken breast mini fillets that have been pre-cooked, so when they are reheated, they are definitely more difficult to eat than the skewers I get from Iceland. I want to try again – I also bought a chill and garlic stir fry sauce to see if I can get in more vegetables.r

I’ve written about 3000 words of a chapter for my writing day and am happy with that. The plan is to settle down and do some reading for the rest of the day – I’ve already failed to meet the deadline for one of the ARCs I had, so it would be nice to get back into reading properly. I haven’t had anything to eat yet – I’m planning on finishing the 32 oz of Vimto protein water before tackling food. The cough is still pretty bad, although not feeling as phlegmy today. I also want to go for a walk but I’m a little scared because my hip is really paining me, but I can’t just not do anything physical because of that – if pain meant that I wasn’t moving around, I’d never do anything.

I still need to find my driving licence, especially if we’re going to look into the motability vehicle next month. If my review isn’t completed by March, I automatically receive PIP for another year so it will be time to look into a vehicle. I like the idea of being able to drive up to Asda and stuff like that – I haven’t been out in ages and feel like I’m turning into a hermit. Stripes and I have also looked into the possibility of water aerobics and the nearest swimming pool that does it is too far away for buses and probably too expensive using Ubers, so having a car would open up quite a few things for us both.

I guess I better get something to eat – I’ve just realised it’s nearly 1 pm and I’ve been awake since 7!!

Excess Body Weight vs Goal Weight

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 150.5 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

I got a response from the weight management team and it’s given me a lot to think about. They weren’t exactly the chattiest in their response: the initial email I got back from them said my message was blank and looked like a black square. My first thought was no-one thought to try to select all and see the writing? Then I reminded myself that not everyone has to have a dark contrast to make things easier to see and I should remember that.

So I re-sent it and the response I got was, well, not exactly effusive and I’m not 100% sure they answered the query but I’ll include the text.

”in terms of protein, if she is achieving 80g from food, then no need to have a protein shake. If managing less than this from food, then would be beneficial to include a shake to get to 80g or more.

In terms of weight loss, she has lost 26% of her excess bodyweight based on her referral weight when she attended post op group 20th Jan. This would suggest good progress.

Of course, weight loss can, and does, plateau after surgery but that doesn’t mean she won’t lose more.”

So it seems like it’s okay for me to be using the clear whey protein and that my weight loss is good – according to them. I think that I forgot that they are basing their calculations on excess body weight, not my entire body weight. I might want to get down to 175 lbs (roughly) but they are looking at 60% of my excess body weight which would take me to around 250 lbs.

It caused a lot of thoughts, like they’re not expecting me to get down to a BMI of 25, just get rid of a lot of my excess weight. When I would imagine most people undergoing surgery like this are thinking that the point is to get to a healthy BMI. I did use the bariatric bible to work out my excess weight and my ‘goal’ weight according to them would be 245 lbs.

But I want to exceed that – I want to get down to a ‘normal’ weight and not be considered fat any more. Which might be too high a goal. I guess watching 600 lb Life has given me an unrealistic view of what can be achieved after surgery. Or maybe I’m going to need to go back to GLP-1s to get down further than that.

I don’t want to be negative but this did affect me quite strongly and has had me thinking some dark thoughts. Like why did I go through with something as drastic as surgery if it’s not going to get me down to where I want to be. It’s been a case of reminding myself that before surgery, I was over 400 lbs – losing 200 lbs is no mean feat and I shouldn’t be knocking what can happen over the course of this year.

The scales have dropped a little – lowest weight registered by less than 0.4 kg – and I got a chunk of sleep last night. I guess I’m just confused as to what has changed. I have stopped having the mozzarella sticks with my chicken skewers; this weekend I did some meal prep and made about 9 chicken skewers after seasoning some mini chicken fillets and cooking them in the oven. Could the lack of mozzarella sticks have made that much difference? My calories are still around 1000 per day, including the clear whey protein, and the rest of the email said that I would be hearing from the dietician within the next three months, so I guess it’s right back to just following the programme, doing what I’m meant to be doing and trusting the process.

I did some yoga this morning – just some seated sun salutations – but I don’t think I’m going out for a walk. My left hip is causing me some major grief, and my left knee is also not happy. I worry that I am making excuses and could be doing more but I also don’t want to push myself to the point of injury. We did a quick Iceland shop which is due this afternoon, so I should be okay for MyProtein cheesecakes and chicken skewers – back to the grind I guess!

My chest is really tight, I’ve been bringing up phlegm and coughing, so I feel a bit of a wreck which hasn’t helped with my mood. We don’t have any plans for today – Book_grim had to go for another pee test up at the surgery, the shopping is due this afternoon, but apart from that I think it’s chill time. I don’t have any ARCs to read – I failed utterly to finish reading that anthology on time, so that’s a mark against me with GRR. I do have some regular books to read so I might try to knock one of those out today. Tomorrow is a writing day and I want to see if I can get a couple of chapters of Burning Love written because it’s going well.

Onwards into Monday.

Is Clear Whey Protein okay after a VSG for weight loss?

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 152.9 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

I caved in and emailed the weight management team asking for advice. Sare said that she had heard that drinking too much clear whey protein could lead to inflammation so I found myself wondering if I was doing myself a disservice by drinking so much of it. I also mentioned my lack of weight loss, although to be honest I can imagine they’ll tell me just to trust the process.

I took a dulcolax yesterday because I am still feeling very bunged up. Oh my Lord, last night it was like a tsunami. I was actually scared to go to bed in case I had an accident and considered sleeping without my CPAP mask on so that I could get out of bed in a hurry. I did sleep with it on but I feel like I slept very lightly and am tired. And the results of the dulcolax have continued into today, as well as incredibly smelly wind. Like almost gagging strength. It feels a bit like with Ozempic when nothing would happen for days and then there would be an outpouring, but in the meantime my body was pushing out the foullest smelling wind ever. I can barely stand to sit with myself and both Stripes and Book_grim were affected by it last night! I got an amazing photo of the pair of them shielding their noses from the stench!

I started my day cursing at the scales because they haven’t moved, despite the emptying. For breakfast, I changed it up a little and had strawberry light greek yoghurt with some raspberries and some mango puree – maybe the fresh fruit will help keep things moving until they settle down? I’m also sticking with drinking my Vimto protein water until I hear back from the Bariatric team. If they say I shouldn’t be having it – or not as much of it – then I can cut back, but in the meantime I want to keep meeting my protein goals.

I tweaked my hip and twisted my left knee during my walk with Book_grim yesterday and am suffering a little today. I did smother myself with muscle rub after my shower yesterday but the ache is still there. I’m not sure if I should go for another walk today or rest? I don’t want to wimp out at the first excuse but I also don’t want to make things worse.

And to top it all off, I feel like I’m going down with a cold!

Fed up and a couple of NSVs

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 152.5 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

I’ll start off with a NSV so that this entire post isn’t negative. Yesterday and today, I went for a walk around the car park outside the flat. Stripes kept me company, I didn’t use my crutches and I made it around twice before needing to come in and sit down. My black zip-up trainers are now loosely enough fitting that I don’t struggle at all to do them up. I want to keep going, upping the amount of time I spend walking around gradually. I also kept up with Stripes when she walked at her normal pace rather than my unsteady stagger.

I spoke to Jay about what I’m eating. We’re friends on NutraCheck and she has access to my diary so she had a look to see if she could spot any reason why I’m not losing weight. Apart from the lack of fresh produce and/or fruit and vegetables, she said that the amount I’m eating seems absolutely fine and she can’t see why the scales aren’t moving. Basically, that I need to trust the process and let it work – which, I know she’s right, but didn’t help me much mentally because I cannot get over how little progress I am making.

I am averaging between 700 and 1100 calories per day, with an emphasis on protein. I drink approximately 2 litres of protein water every day if not more. And I am not losing any weight at all. I want to cry – out of all of the people I have read about, it’s me that isn’t losing weight and feels like a failure.

I don’t want to bother the weight management team because what can they say? I can give them access to what I’m eating and how I’m logging it, but they have no way of knowing why my body is behaving the way that it’s behaving. So basically all that I can do is keep on keeping on, try to get in a bit more fresh produce and hope that my body starts behaving like a ‘normal’ body and releases some weight.

I am trying to make sure that I listen to my body’s cues – if I start burping when I’m eating, then I don’t take another bite. I am taking small bites, chewing at least 30 times and waiting at least 30 seconds between bites but often more. Back to basics. I have thought about going back to just liquid for a few days, like a reset but I don’t know if I could cope with it. I’m just so fed up of all of this – if I was cheating or doing something stupid, it would be one thing, but I’m not. I’m following the rules, eating what I should, moving my body more – why the hell isn’t this working for me?

I did receive the letter following up from the appointment on 20th January and it says that I have a slightly raised cholesterol level, so I called the Drs' surgery and they got me a telephone appointment for today (Saturday). The doctor I spoke to didn’t actually have access to my blood test results, apologised for the faff and said that he would request the results be transferred to my patient profile and then they would get back to me.

I finished another hat and infinity scarf and Book_grim is now the proud owner of a dusky pink set of warm-wear. Now I just need her to get her own pair of gloves so she can stop borrowing mine! I’m going to make some matching hats for my nephew, his fiancee and their two daughters and that should keep my hands busy and hopefully give me something different to focus on. I got a ball of cable chunky from Home Bargains but I didn’t realise just how super-chunky this stuff was. There was no way I was going to be able to make anything substantial out of it, so I ended up making a catnip pillow for the cats! Ah well, they seemed to appreciate it so I can’t complain.

I gave the girls their Galentine’s presents yesterday and I think they were pleased. I have a foot pack on and after posting this, I’m going to see if I can finish the ARC I’ve been reading and plan to do a review tomorrow. Other than that, I have no plans to do anything – walking a couple of times around the car park might not seem like a big deal to most people, but I am shattered. Maybe it’s because I’m not using my crutches? Anyway, I figured it was better than potentially upsetting the bitch-stitch using the resistance bands and every little bit of motion helps. I hope.

Feeling Meh!

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 152.6 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Well to say that I am disappointed in the scales is minimalising things more than a little. I can’t believe that at this point in time, I haven’t even managed to lose 1 kg in February. It’s driving me slightly insane and I am STRUGGLING.

I have moved onto more ‘solid’ food – I am eating 1 chicken skewer and 2 mozarella sticks on average per day, as well as having protein pancakes and yoghurt for breakfast, so perhaps it’s the quantity of food that I’m consuming? I have decided that I need to get back to basics: three meals per day, chew each mouthful at least 20 times, no meal lasting longer than 20 minutes – basically rereading all of the original instructions. I finally received my letter from my appointment on 20th January and apparently my cholesterol is raised so they want me to book in with my doctor to see if they want me on some medication. I might also look into what can cause high cholesterol to see if it’s a particular thing that I’m eating.

I’ve managed to get quite a few different clear whey protein powders to try so that if the Vimto becomes unavailable, I still have choices. I don’t know – basically I woke up this afternoon (after 12) and just felt meh and the feeling hasn’t lifted. It’s meant to be a writing day and I think that I might kill someone in an attempt to feel better. Ah, the joy of being a fiction writer!

Stripes is dropping off Vee’s birthday present – decided to gift her a new jigsaw puzzle because she didn’t say what she actually wanted and I know she does puzzles. I think Book_grim is waiting on a delivery – a new water bottle to replace the one she left in Sainsburys. And I have a chapter to write for ‘Burning Love’ and then an ARC to read. I should hopefully be able to get through today without literally killing someone but perhaps I should minimalise my contact with people just to be sure!

I used Microlax again this morning and feel a little less bloated but then I dread to think what the scales would have said before I did that! God, does this ever get easier? The bitch stitch is still causing issues, I feel like I have so little control – despite its’ side effects, Ozempic feels like it was SO much easier!

Review: X-tone Fitness Clear Whey Protein - Pineapple

X-tone Fitness Clear Whey Protein - Pineapple

My first impressions of this was that it was very zingy! Definitely identifiable as pineapple although it does have a slightly artificial aftertaste. Seems a little high in calories compared to other clear whey protein I’ve had, but that might just be because I’ve become very aware of how much more that I am eating now. It is balanced by a decent protein content.

It was easy to blend using the hand whisk, but Stripes said that it had a lot of froth and ended up sieving it into my cup because she was wary of lumps of unmixed powder. There actually weren’t any lumps and like I said, it was a nice refreshing zingy drink that I can imagine I will very much enjoy come the summer! I liked it enough to order the apple version to see if it's as good and Stripes found it for me in Home Bargains.

Review: BodyFuel Blue Raspberry Beef Isolate Protein Powder

BodyFuel Blue Raspberry Beef Isolate

I was a little worried that I would be tasting cold beef using this, but I saw it whilst shopping at Home Bargains and decided to give it a go because I was struggling to get my hands on my favourite Clear Whey Protein.

This has a very fruity flavour – not sure I’d say raspberry, but definitely fruity. Maybe tropical is a better description!

It makes up easily – whether using a hand whisk or a blender. There isn’t a lot of froth no matter how you mix it compared to other brands that I have tried. I would consider getting it again if I can’t get my favourites – it’s not my favourite taste but not offensive, although I would imagine some people might find it too artificial or plasticky tasting.

Review: MyProtein Vimto Clear Whey Protein Powder

MyProtein Vimto Clear Whey Protein

During my first post-op meeting with the Bariatric Team, I was I a group of about ten people. We were all at different stages post-op so were able to pick up little tips from people who were further ahead.

Someone mentioned the Vimto Clear Whey Protein and I decided to give it a try – I had been drinking the Vieve Protein water but it was getting expensive and I wasn’t enjoying the flavours. I have personally found the Vimto to be a game-changer in terms of getting in enough fluids and upping my protein intake.

Very good Vimto flavour, very light and refreshing, it is better when made using a blender rather than a hand whisk. It does froth up quite a lot so you have to wait for the fizzing and frothing to calm down before you can pour it into your cup. In my 1.2 l cup, I can get in 800 mls with lots of ice.

My biggest problem has been getting hold of it! I originally ordered it from Boots and got three tubs of 251 g for £30 (individually they would come to £47.25 as of 10/02/25) but it was out of stock when I went to order more.

I visited the MyProtein website and got very confused because they were selling Vimto Collagen Protein Powder, which I believe is something different and I found it all very confusing. Transpires that the clear whey protein is out of stock on the MyProtein site so I went back to refreshing the Boots website until I got lucky! I ordered six tubs for £60 and am just hoping that (a) I don’t go off of it before I use all six tubs and (b) that it’s still in stock when it’s time to make my next purchase!

Review : MyProtein Salted Caramel Cheesecakes

MyProtein Salted Caramel Cheesecakes

I bought these so that I could have a ‘cake’ on my birthday. Thick doesn’t even begin to describe the consistency – it was like New York Baked Cheesecake but even thicker! I wouldn’t have managed this during the puree stage, and possibly not even during the mashables stage.

It has a lovely texture in the mouth with a very subtle salted caramel taste running through it without it tasting artificial. I’m ten weeks post-op and barely managed to finish the whole thing as a full meal. It was very filling, tasty and definitely satisfied my desire for a sweet treat. I can definitely see me getting more of these. One word of warning, they take approximately six hours to defrost in the fridge, so make sure you plan ahead if you want one!

Review: UFit White Chocolate Protein Drink

Ufit White Chocolate Protein Shake

I’ve seen these recommended on the Bariatric Surgery subreddit and various YouTube videos so I asked for one as part of my birthday hamper.

Maybe it’s because I had it luke-warm/room temperature, but I am not a fan. The white chocolate taste was faint and very artificial; there was a slightly cloying aftertaste that coated my mouth and throat in a most unpleasant manner, and the burps and wind began almost immediately. It also made my stomach rumble loudly and threateningly although as yet, I haven’t had diarrhoea so maybe it’s not going to get that bad.

I suppose as a quick hit of protein on the go, it would be alright, but I can’t see me having another one if I have a choice about it – shame, because I really liked the idea of these.

Review of some MyProtein Products

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 151.4 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

It’s my birthday tomorrow so I got myself some birthday food as we discovered that MyProtein have a small product range at Iceland. I have tried a few of the products so here are my reviews so far.

MyProtein Salt and Pepper Chicken Skewers

You get four in a packet and I’m not sure what I was expecting but these things look like humungous chicken thighs that have been skewered! It was really nice to sink my teeth into something so solid – I hadn’t really realised that even though I’m meant to be transitioning to normal food, a lot of what I eat is kinda ‘soft’ – like Babybel, cheese strings, etc. Stripes cooked my dinner in the air fryer and it took less than fifteen minutes to make. The skewers are not too heavily seasoned but definitely flavourful and you get a lot on one skewer. I’m so glad I decided to only start small because I managed a third of one for my dinner along with a mozarella stick! Because of how solid it was, it made it easy to get my 30 chews in without it feeling like it turned into mulch and it didn’t ‘stick’ in my throat or chest. I finished the skewer later in the day and it tasted just as nice reheated.

MyProtein Cheesy Mozarella Sticks

I was a little wary of these because obviously they’re coated and I haven’t had anything even resembling bread crumbs since well before surgery. They were nice – not too greasy but very cheesy, didn’t stick in my throat or make me feel sick and were lovely accompanying the skewer. I managed one for dinner and had the second one later on. I will say, when it was reheated in the microwave, it turned into less of a mozarella stick and more of a pancake as it lost all of it’s shape but that didn’t affect the taste in the slightest!

MyProtein Protein Pancakes – cocoa and original flavours

I wanted to try something a little different for breakfast because I have just been eating cheese strings and Babybels and I wasn’t sure if they were having a detrimental effect on my stomach, so Stripes originally picked these up at Tesco. I added a tub of Mueller Light Greek Style yoghurt in coconut and vanilla flavour, with a couple of teaspoons of mango puree on top. The pancake didn’t taste of much but it did provide some nice texture – spongey, not too hard, but quite filling. With the yoghurt and puree, it definitely was a full meal – I can almost manage it all in one go but it does take some time, which is probably good because yoghurts can be a bit of a slider food on their own. I’ve since tried the cocoa flavour, and again it doesn’t have a particularly strong taste but provides a nice base for the yoghurt. I am thinking about getting some pancake mix to see how that turns out, but we shall see. You get four in a packet for around £2.35 and they last in the fridge for a week, so two packets will more than cover seven days worth of breakfast, which I think is quite a decent price.

I placed an order for some Galentine’s presents for the girls and included the BodyFuel Clear Beef Protein Isolate in Blue Raspberry and I’ll see how that tastes after I’ve finished the MyProtein Vimto (which is absolutely lovely and very thirst quenching as well as providing a decent chunk of protein).

Microlax Review and mini update

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 151.4 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

It’s ten weeks to the day that I had surgery and my weight loss as of today is 13 kg, which is just under 29 lbs. Sare just sent me a very timely reminder that I lost over 100 lbs before the surgery so need to stop mithering about the rate of loss – I’m doing good and I need to own that.

I finally gave in and called the weight management team at the hospital about the pain under my left breast. I left a message with my hospital number and mobile, asking whether I should try to get in to see my GP or do something else, so I guess I’ll wait to hear from them. It’s been getting progressively worse over the course of the week – so much so, I have to press a pillow against it when I sit up or get out of bed because sometimes it can be quite sharp.

Today, I tried Microlax for the first time – I have been feeling a bit bunged up and really wanted to try something gentle because I don’t want to let it go too long. I bought it from Amazon here and it cost me £13.15 for four of them. I was more than a little nervous – I didn’t want any accidents, especially with the shower out of commission. I found instructions via google because my packet was in a foreign language and didn’t come with any! Basically, you twist the cap and pull it off, then squeeze a little so that it lubricates the nozzle. I don’t know if I would have found insertion as easy before losing some weight due to needing to do some slight contortions but it went in smoothly, with no issues. The instructions said results could happen any time between 2 and 30 minutes so I decided to stay put just in case.

Within about five minutes, things were happening and to be honest, it was easy. No straining or pain, it wasn’t a violent evacuation and no stomach ache. I stayed on the toilet for another five minutes or so just to be sure, but definitely feeling better for using it. I had more success with this than with Dulcolax which I have used in the past and wouldn’t hesitate to use it again.

The guy came to have a look at the shower pump and it says it’s dead and needs to be replaced. We’re down as an emergency and it looks like it will be sometime next week. I can’t wait – I feel so grimy not being able to shower!

I think I’m going to try to write another chapter on my story and then do some reading!

Progress Pics and February so far

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 150.9 | IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Well, as long as I don’t chicken out, I’m about to do something really flippin’ scary and post some progress pictures. I’m blurring my face – not sure why but there we have it. I didn’t start taking proper progress photos of my body until the end of October when I knew the surgery was happening so I don’t have any comparable pictures of me at my biggest, which was just shy of 458 lbs. As of this morning, I weigh about 338 lbs and I would ultimately like to get down to around 175 lbs although I know that even with surgery, that might not be something I can attain.

Feeling very vulnerable and very scared. Originally when I placed the photos side by side, I couldn’t see a difference but looking at them more logically rather than emotionally, I can see some changes. My butt is smaller, the bulges are getting smaller and the bit of flab that is hanging over the edge of my sports bra in the first picture is definitely smaller. I keep reading people say to take the progress photos because they are irrefutable proof that the changes are happening, but I’m not sure I agree with that at the moment.

I did stop myself going down the rabbit hole of doing side by side comparisons with ALL of the photos – we take them front, back and both sides – so there’s that I suppose. I need to have an ‘official progress photos’ outfit to make comparison easier from now on.

So how has February been? Well, variable. I am feeling a lot of the blahs – not wanting to read, knit or play video games. We’ve got into jigsaws in a big way – well, I have. I’ve just bought four new puzzles and a board to do them on – it keeps us busy and I guess it keeps my brain working. Food-wise, I seem to be in a rut. For quite a while I was literally having cheese strings, Babybel and fish as well as drinking a lot of protein clear whey protein. My current favourite flavour is Vimto but I am looking at cheaper, different versions that help with getting my protein numbers up. I am trying to branch out – Stripes bought me some protein pancakes and yesterday I had one with some yoghurt and mango puree. The pancake didn’t taste of anything much, but it was most likely the most solid food I’ve eaten since surgery. Well, until last night anyway.

One night a week, I order take out. It’s to give Stripes a break from doing most of the cooking and since I can’t exactly take over the kitchen and do a slap up spread for everyone, this is the best that I can do. Last night we had kebabs and I ordered a chicken kebab with extra salad in a pitta bread. I didn’t have any of the pitta bread – a deliberate choice – and I aimed for the chicken and salad. I’ve realised that I am still not listening to my body cues – I felt the constriction, but still pushed myself to eat more of the chicken than I needed. So I’ve decided that from now on, I’ll order the take out for the girls and just have something from home. I don’t want to mess this up just because I sometimes feel like it’s not working, or I’m bored, or just – whatever reasons my monkey brain comes up with.

That’s progress though, right? That I recognise it as a dangerous temptation and removing it from my options.

I’m struggling a bit with BMs – they’re not solid but they’re not diarrhoea and I’m taking ages in the bathroom with not much in the way of results. I guess that won’t be helping me feel good generally but I’m not sure what do to about it. I don’t know if I want to try one of those Miralax things in case it causes a dramatic reaction, but maybe that’s what I need? A good clear out of my system, similar to how it used to happen when I was taking Ozempic. It’s possibly happening because of the sheer amount of cheese that I’m consuming – string cheese and Babybel might be good as a protein snack, but I’m not sure they’re doing my insides much good. I want to say that I’ll cut down on them, or even cut them out altogether for a while, but then what do I eat instead?

I’m still not managing three meals per day and have only just got my calories above 500 per day. It’s a difficult one – maybe I need to have another look at that bariatric cook book I bought. Eggs are okay but I don’t find them comfortable to eat every day. Maybe I should try to have a pancake with yoghurt for breakfast, a chicken breast for lunch and then fish for dinner? I might have a chat with Stripes about it, see what she thinks.

I haven’t tried the Leslie Sansone walking video again since the first time and nor have I done the resistance bands. I have pain in my hip from when I first tried doing these and as I am still suffering with a dull pain in my main ‘bitch’ stitch, I don’t want to try to get down on the floor and do some rowing using the bands. However, I do try to shuffle around the flat regularly so I am still moving. I think I need to do more – maybe just do the resistance bands rowing whilst on the bed? I know it won’t be as steady, but it will cause me less pain I hope. I think I want to try to do them every other day initially. I did do some seated yoga this morning so there’s that.

We have someone from the council coming sometime tomorrow to have another look at the shower pump, which will hopefully sort that out. It would be nice if it could get sorted because I am longing for a shower! Book_grim is feeling better – she has an ultrasound booked for 16th February and needs to book in for blood tests. Stripes has to book in for blood tests as well, and her Dr is sending her for a full work-up, just to be sure everything is working the way that it should. I haven’t heard anything from the dieticians about my next appointment, but I know it should be within the next three months so I’m not worried at this point in time. It does feel a little like we’ve just been set free and told to lose weight. I know they gave us the Bariatric booklet but it feels a little light in terms of support, but that may just be me feeling that.

It’s my birthday on Sunday and I basically asked the girls for a Home Bargains haul! I don’t need anything and there’s no point in buying clothes because (a) I don’t go anywhere and (b) I have no idea what size to ask for, so there’s that.

I think we’re all caught up at what’s been happening in February so far. I want to try to write another chapter of my latest fanfic and then do some reading as I have about four ARCs to get through, so that’s all for now.

End of January 2025

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 151.9| IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Closing down the month and really not sure how I’m feeling. Mainly disappointed I guess. I’m sick - again. Sniffles, bad cough and an upset stomach. The upset stomach might be because I’ve been adding sugar free syrups to my protein pudding and possibly the maltitol has got me – I won’t have one today and see what’s happening. Apart from the hospital, I haven’t been anywhere this month to catch another leurgy and Book_grim hasn’t been to work this week, so no idea where I got this one. Le sigh, I guess it is what it is.

Overall, I’ve lost 3.8 kg this month which is a disappointment. I know I shouldn’t complain – I am losing weight but I can’t help but wish it was happening faster. I want to take some photos tomorrow as the first of the month but I don’t have much hope for seeing any real progress. I was reading some posts on Reddit and a couple of people said that you lose the fat around your organs before you lose visceral fat but I’m not sure that applies to me because of losing the 100 lbs before surgery. Either way, sometimes I find myself wondering if I should have just stuck with Ozempic.

I know my perceptions are tainted by watching things like My 600lbs Life where they easily drop 30 – 50 lbs a month, as well as the fact that they are starting at a much higher weight than me but it’s still a bit disheartening. In a bizarre attempt to make me be logical (does she even know me?!) Jay reminded me of three things:

1 - that's over 8lbs

2 - you don't weigh anywhere near 600lb

3 - you have limited mobility

So, yes, she’s right about all of those things but my brain refuses to hear any of them because I think I just want to sulk before I get back to sticking to the rules and letting it work for me.

Book_grim was in a lot of pain this morning, so I suggested muscle rub, an electric blanket and a heat pack, painkillers and finally getting stoned so that she can fall asleep. Possibly not typical maternal advice, but hopefully she’ll wake up later feeling a bit better.

I got a chunk of sleep again last night. Went to sleep around 10.30 and woke up around 7.45 when my stomach upset made me get up, so I’m wide awake when the rest of the house is fast asleep! I’ve already done my squardle, posted my monthly book reviews and am now contemplating adding to the story I started yesterday. I don’t think it’s going to be a long one – I don’t think I have a long fic in me at the moment – but it’s nice to be feeling creative again.

Right, let me see if I can get another chapter out and then I might return to the fiendish jigsaw – we made good progress on it yesterday and I think it might be finished by the end of the weekend!

Time for a catch up!

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 152.3| IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Blimey, it’s definitely time for a catch up!

Home stuff first. We have a leak coming through the bathroom ceiling – it seems to be coming from upstairs’ bathroom, isn’t steady or regular but we did get someone from the council out to have a look. I need to check with Stripes to find out what the guy said but I do know he spoke to the people upstairs who were apparently not very nice to him! Something about their bathtub seal needing to be redone. We’ll have to see.

The pump in the shower stopped working, and just so happened to do so whilst I was rinsing out natural black hair-dye! So the shower stall was full of murky dark purple water and we used quite a few towels mopping it up. A guy from the council came to have a look, then said he’d be back as he was an electrician and it looked like a job for a plumber. He did come back and they said they think the drain needs to be flushed through because the pump seems to be working, so we’re waiting on another appointment for that. Stripes managed to mop up the main floor so the bathroom is still useable but it’s a pain in the butt.

I dyed my hair – it was meant to be natural black but for some reason has come out a deep purple colour! Stripes said I should just accept that obviously my hair is meant to be purple, but I am a little disappointed. It would have been interesting to see what I looked like with dark, natural coloured hair.

The scales are moving downwards so, so slowly but I have reached a new low of 152.3. I did see 151 something on the scales but it didn’t last so I won’t count it. Since surgery, I have lost over 12 kg, which sounds impressive but I am more than a little disappointed. It’s not even 2 stone and it’s been over two months now. I know I should be pleased because the weight is coming off but I can’t help but wish for a faster rate of loss.

Following a recommendation at the group hospital meeting I went to last week, I have been drinking Vimto Protein powder and it seems to be helping me up my protein. Stripes has gone to Home Bargains and is meant to be getting me a couple of tubs of some protein powder from up there: tropical flavour and also blackcurrant, which was the bargain price of £14.99, so that could be good. I’ve also been eating Asda’s white fish fillet in cheese sauce for dinner. A whole one is a bit too much, which I discovered because I pushed too far (i.e.. kept eating after the burping started) and felt like my chest was constricted. I’m pleased that I’m beginning to read the signs that I am reaching my limits but man, it’s a tough lesson sometimes.

My daily meals look something like this:

Breakfast: Babybel light x 2, string cheese

Dinner: Fish fillet with mushrooms

Snacks: Protein pudding with dark espresso chocolate sugar free syrup, followed by another couple of cheeses if I’m still feeling peckish later.

I’m averaging between 500 and 800 calories a day, so I have managed to get them up since the hospital visit. I’ve had porridge or scrambled eggs a couple of days, but generally I don’t seem to be able to manage three meals per day. I think that I need to be eating a little more and also more regularly and then maybe the weight loss might speed up? It’s just difficult to do AND get my water in, hence going for protein water.

I’m back onto paracetamol in tablet form although sometimes it feels like it get stuck. It also means I’ve been able to start taking my aspirin again, as well as my propranolol. I’m only managing to get three sets of meds in during the day instead of four, but it’s a step in the right direction of returning to normal so I’m pleased with that. I’ve been struggling with a threatening migraine all week, but so far it hasn’t manifested fully. I can’t even blame the stress of stuff around the house because it started before all of that happened.

Book_grim isn’t well – totm has been extremely painful this month, with severe pain, heavy bleeding and fatigue, and she looks pale af. She hasn’t been able to go to work and this morning, I managed the miracle of getting her a doctor’s appointment – face to face. He has prescribed her some slightly heavier duty painkillers instead of ibuprofen or paracetamol, and he’s arranging for her to have an ultrasound. I’m a bit worried – we have a history of endometriosis and fibroids in the family, and I know one of my sisters ended up having a hysterectomy for her fibroids, so I’m hoping it’s nothing that serious.

Stripes bought me a jigsaw puzzle which is driving me insane. It’s a glorious picture of a bumble bee amongst some sunflowers, but it’s kinda circular instead of rectangular, and the pieces are all kinds of odd shapes. She got something similar for Christmas so decided to torture me in a similar fashion. She also got some sticky-backed plastic, so when we finally do finish it, we can line the back and I can have it displayed in my room. That’s if I ever finish it – this thing is fiendish!

Things ended between Book_grim and Luke, which was a bit of a shame. He said he wasn’t in the right place for a relationship so I kinda respect him for not messing her about, although I know she was upset by the whole ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ of it all. Mom visited us last Thursday and spent about 90 minutes with us. It was weird – two of the cats were on the bed with me, along with Book_grim and Stripes was in the chair next to me – I felt very surrounded, very protected. She was obviously on her best behaviour although she did make a few fat-phobic comments that had me biting my tongue. I managed to stick with the whole information-diet and didn’t tell her about any weight loss or anything like that, so I feel that overall it went okay. She’s off on holiday again on Saturday which should take some strain off.

I tried to do the Leslie Sansone One Mile Walk on Monday and almost killed myself! I made it a third of the way through but was utterly exhausted afterwards. Today, I did my first session with my new resistance bands and was pleased that I made it all of the way through. I did manage to twang myself in the back of the thigh about three or four times; Stripes hit herself in the face; and afterwards I have been struggling with some pain in my hip, but overall I’m pleased with what I managed to do.

I got some new shoes – the Wednesday Crocs!

They are a little tight across my right foot so I need to fill them with some newspaper or something to stretch them out. The weird thing is that I bought a size 9 and they seem a bit long for me? If the width wasn’t an issue, I’m pretty sure that they’d be too big for me which freaked me out just a little. I guess it could be viewed as a NSV, but I didn’t expect to lose length from my feet! It would be so much handier if I could get my feet to not be so puffy and swollen, but maybe that will come with time?

Heading into February and I think I want to go through my clothes rail to see if there are clothes I can get rid of. I don’t want to even consider getting any new clothes until I really start to see some weight loss but I think it would be a good idea to clear the rack nevertheless. I’m not sure whether I want to try to sell them or maybe I should just take them to a charity shop. Most of my clothes are very old anyway – like, three or four years old, so I doubt anyone is going to want to buy them so I’m not sure if it’s even worth the effort of trying to sell them. I guess we’ll see. I also want to have a go at tidying my bedroom, as the floor has got cluttered again and some of the cables for my laptops look all twisted and tangled at the side of the bed.

So I guess that’s pretty much it for January. Tomorrow, I need to post my book reviews round up, and on Saturday I want to take some new progress photos. You never know, I might actually get up the nerve to post some side-by-side photos here but I wouldn’t count on it. Not unless I can really see some changes anyway!

First Official Dietetics Appointment

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 153.6| IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

Well the day finally arrived for my first dietetics appointment. We booked our taxi ahead of time because we needed one that would hold my wheelchair and it was there, which was excellent. It was a good thing that we decided to bring my wheelchair because when we arrived at the hospital, there wasn’t a single wheelchair in sight. Finding the place we needed to go wasn’t too bad, but we did have to go through a building, then back outside, walk up a hill, then down a small hill to get there. I pushed the wheelchair and walked behind it up the hill and I definitely feel like I did my cardio for the day.

When we arrived, we were told that I would be weighed then have bloods taken, which we were pleased with as it meant we wouldn’t have to wait after the group meeting for that. I weighed in wearing my boots (she took off 2kg for them) and their scales said the same as mine did this morning which was nice. After that, we joined the queue of people waiting for bloods and realised that they must be there for the same thing as me. It was weird because I was pretty sure I was the biggest person there but Stripes said that I wasn’t. I dunno – it felt weird knowing these people were in a group with me who had had their surgery around the same time. Like knowing what they were going through without actually knowing them.

Then I went in to the group meeting. Immediately I stood out because I was the only one with a bottle of water and the only one taking notes. I felt like the class swot. There was a woman there who had had her surgery back in October but had missed two appointments so this was the first meeting she was attending. I must admit, I found her a bit irritating – she just kept going on and on about how much she missed eating whatever she wanted, then was chatting to people whilst the dietician Gary was trying to talk. Next on my bingo card was a gentleman who talked – a lot. Unfortunately, I couldn’t follow his accent very well so a lot of what he said I didn’t understand. I think he was either Scottish or Irish, but his accent was strong. One thing he said that resonated with me was how he lost a chunk of weight straight after the operation, then nothing for about two weeks, then dropped another 5 lbs then nothing since. His loss was on a par with mine so I didn’t feel like such an epic failure.

Gary said that it was perfectly normal, that some people had a linear weight loss whilst others had regular stalls and plateaus and not to worry about it. Basically, he said to aim for a minimum of 60g of protein per day and 2 l of low calories liquids. As we get accustomed to the sleeve, our calories should automatically rise until we’re between 800 and 1600 per day. I asked him if my calories were too low (they average between 400 – 600) and he said that they are a little low and to try to increase them gradually but make sure I ‘listen’ to my body and take it slowly, so that was reassuring.

I’m allowed to begin light exercise like walking, stretching yoga and the resistance bands, but again to listen to my body. No heavy lifting until at least 8 weeks after surgery. If I feel any pain or major discomfort, then stop and wait a few days before trying again. I need to check whether or not I have been taking the ADCAL D3 which I believe is a lifelong thing for vitamin D and if I’m not taking that, then I need to start. A letter will go to us and our GPs outlining the meds were should be taking and the schedule for the intramuscular B12 injections that we are meant to get every three months.

From now on, our appointments will be 1-1 with a dietician and they can take place over the telephone as they are aware what a pain it is to get to the hospital as parking is atrocious. After that, it was over and Stripes and I made our way back to the main entrance and ordered our taxi. This is where things went wrong. We went through the same company that we had booked in the morning and ordered the cab at 15.46. At 16.16, I tried calling to find out if there was a problem but we were left on hold for so long, I hung up. We contemplated ordering an Uber but weren’t sure if they would send one that would hold my wheelchair, so called the company again. Got through this time and they told us it would be another 30 minutes wait. So over an hour.

We were not best pleased but didn’t really have a choice. So it cost me £60 in taxi fees today and over an hour of waiting. I really hope we don’t have any more appointments at that hospital because I don’t think I could cope.

I’m home, writing this up and then I’m calling it a day. This blog is going to have to count as my writing day as I feel completely wiped out. Stripes is pretty exhausted too – I wouldn’t have coped with today without her. Book_grim is going out to play Music Bingo at Barb’s with the new man-friend, Luke, and (hopefully) her friend Dani and her partner. So a nice peaceful evening is planned and I will probably have an early night. Maybe watch some NCIS or 1000 lbs Sisters as we’re on the last season so have caught up with them.

I think I am reassured regarding the weight loss – obviously it would be lovely to be dropping 20 lbs every other week, but it doesn’t look like my body agrees so I’m just going to take it slow and steady.

I had some non-scale victories today. My stripes boxers that I ordered in a size 5 xl that were more than a little snug now fit nicely; the bra that was a little tight just before the operation I had to go in one on the hooks and eyes and could quite easily have moved in another notch; leggings fit with wrinkles as there was so much space in them. Also, the chocolate brown coat from SimplyBe felt huge and too hot, but once we were outside it was absolutely heavenly! I felt toasty warm apart from my hands (I ordered gloves from Home Bargains so hopefully that will deal with that!) and it was definitely a good buy.

Back to going solo and taking it one meal at a time!

The scales finally moved!

SW⟫ 207.7 | CW⟫ 153.7| IGW ⟫ 139.5

Transition to Normal Food⟫ Ongoing

I can’t believe it’s been a week since I wrote something here – so much has happened. Right, first of all, we discovered that the cause of the pain beneath my breast was most likely me drinking carbonated drinks. I thought things were okay because I was using a straw and getting more liquid down, but it appears that the carbonation was causing inflammation in my pouch, hence the pain. So no more carbonated water or lemonade for me and I have been on either normal water or squash since then. Which meant we didn’t need to call the doctor.

I had a few nights of no sleep, even after vaping. I think it was because I stayed up too long after vaping which meant the effects had worn off and I didn’t sleep. However, last night I lay in bed thinking about how cold my feet were and suddenly remembered that I had been wearing thermal socks to bed. I got out of the habit because I had put my last pair on the sofa and I think they got knocked off by one of the girls. So I dragged myself out of bed at 3 am and put on a pair of thermal socks. I hadn’t vaped so wasn’t sure how much sleep I would get. I woke up today around 1.30 pm so suffice it to say, I need warm feet in order to sleep.

And, drum roll please, the scales moved! I am down to 153.7 kg, which takes me down 54 kgs since I began this journey. The rate of loss is still slow since surgery – 10.7 kgs or about 23.5 lbs in seven weeks. That still works out at just over 3 lbs a week so I guess I can’t complain. I need to stop comparing myself to people on Reddit and TV shows. It’s not a reliable method of figuring out what my losses should be because it’s generally the people who have lost loads of weight since surgery that post about it. The people like me who are losing slow and steady(ish) are most likely not posting about it because it doesn’t sound particularly impressive.

I am grateful to see the scales drop before the hospital appointment tomorrow. I was unsure about attending – this cough is pretty gnarly – but not only is it the first hospital appointment since surgery but I believe that there are blood tests that need to be taken and I don’t want to miss those. It’s not going to be fun – Stripes checked the hospital website and it states that they don’t have a large amount of wheelchairs available and that we should bring our own. Which means getting an Uber that can hold my wheelchair which is going to be a pain.

Book_grim wants to come to the appointment but she has a counselling session from 12.30 pm and we’re going to need to leave around 1.30 pm so she might not be ready. I’ll have to talk to her about it this evening, make sure she knows when we’re leaving.

The good thing about going to the hospital is that I finally get to wear my Calvin and Hobbes hoody that the girls bought me for Christmas and my chocolate brown puffer coat! Result – I was beginning to think I was never going to get to wear them.

I ordered myself some new crocs and they cost a pretty penny. Even with the discounts I managed to get, they were £50. But they are Wednesday Addams crocs and look a bit like Stripes’ white and black Dr Maartens so I can’t wait for them to turn up. I got them here and I really, really hope that they fit because I went for a size 9. The crocs I’m currently wearing are an American size 11, which means a size 9 in the UK I think, but I’m not sure if the new ones are going to be wide enough for my feet.

Vee recommended TOA Taxis for being able to take wheelchairs so we’re going to give them a go for tomorrow. I’ve downloaded the app and it looks similar to Uber because I can pay that way rather than having to have cash. I’m pretty sure I’ve fallen into one of those black cabs before trying to lift my leg high enough but hopefully that won’t happen again.

I dyed my hair yesterday. It was meant to be rose-gold but I think some of the purple must have stuck around as it’s very pink. I like it – kinda frosted pink because some of the white is still showing through – but definitely not rose gold. I’ve been eating mega amounts of string cheese and babybel lights and they seem to stay down well and give me a boost of protein. I’ve also found some protein yoghurts that I can handle – Arla – that are something like 20g protein per cup. I want to try to get my protein up to at least a regular 80g per day although I think I should be trying to get in something like 120g per day!

Mom got in touch and said she wants to come round and visit, so I’ve said Wednesday or Thursday of this week to give me time to recover from the hospital. Stripes has some things she baked for Christmas still available so we can offer her refreshments and hopefully get through the visit without anyone getting upset. I’m not counting on it – she knows about the hospital visit and I can almost guarantee that she’ll say something about the rate of weight loss. I’m determined to stick to the information diet, so no telling her how much weight I’ve lost (or not lost) – just keep it at any advice the surgery team give me, maybe tales of the people I meet in the group tomorrow. Okay, I refuse to start dreading Thursday before I’ve even got through Monday!

I think that’s it for a catch up – I want to paint my nails and chill for the rest of the evening so that I can cope with tomorrow. Fingers crossed it doesn’t get cancelled again.